Saturday, March 1, 2008

things just keep trucking on....

yesterday was also a good day...choclahontas/divabitch got the keys to her apt...poppy signed the lease...the second broker got paid under the table and alls well that ends well...
so now divabitch is off to her admissions test for the big fashion school...dressed in her fly thigh-high boots (plus clothes...lol)...

now my moodmagicbarb can relax...she was a bit snippy yesterday, but it's just because she's tired and overwhelmed with divabitch, whirlwind (who has been here all week...he makes the fish tired), and the explosion of their stuff...MMB likes when I write about her, but gets mad when I write about her...

but here's my gripe...yesterday I went to a seminar that addressed the tools of play therapy...now I did get useful information, but it was not worth the 159 I paid, nor was it worth sitting for six hours...she was good at explaining the playroom and why certain toys are needed, but toward the end she just showed individual pictures of the small toys...I asked her to explain the use of superheros, but she couldn't/wouldn't...as I sat I said to myself I give more to my students, this is really bullshit and how much is she getting paid...so at the end at the evaluation they ask if anyone wants to be an instructor and I said HELL YEAH...

I like to work multiple jobs...it keeps it interesting...I would die if I worked a mundane 9-5...that's why I love living in NY...there is always something interesting to do that's within walking distance or a train ride...MMB and I argue about that...she says she was born in NY so she can't wait to leave, I say cause I got here when I was nine from a small country I like NY and don't want to leave...plus, as I said before, I'm finally establishing myself and don't want to have to start over...once I'm on bigdog status things will be a little different...

so now I'm running on little sleep which is not a good look, and trying to figure out what I'm going to do with whirlwind, who is driving me crazy, until his mama comes back...now I remember why I didn't have more kids...

4 comments:

Fat Lady said...

I am SO happy for all of you - the whole family - that choclahontas got her apartment!!!!

No surprise that you raised your hand to be an instructor. As soon as I started reading you weren't satisfied with the class, I started thinking, "You could probably teach it better yourself." And I'm sure you can!

That's what I need. Multiple jobs. Something.

About the NYC thing - I don't think it has to do with being born here or not. I know plenty of people who were born here who couldn't live anywhere else - and others who came here later and just could never get into a groove. And vice versa - I've certainly known those who were born here and had to get the hell out as soon as they could, and others who came here and gelled immediately.

NYC has a certain energy - and it either matches yours or it doesn't. I think if it matches, the city makes you feel vibrant and alive - you feel a certain electricity here that you don't when you leave. But if it doesn't match you never feel quite at ease. You're always a little out of sorts and when you get away it feels like everything inside you just calms down.

I've had both happen to me at different times in my life. For the most part, my energy matches the city and it makes me feel good. And when I go away for a while and then come back I fell the energy hit me almost like a zap from an outlet - but in a good way.

On the other hand, there have been times when my energy was moving a different way and then being here made me feel clumsy, sluggish - yet agitated inside. Like when you've been crying for a long time and you're really worn out but there's that crazy, fast fluttering feeling inside. When I've gotten like that and then left the city it's been like getting away from a grating sound that I didn't even realize was there, but was making me crazy.

Now, maybe my descriptions reveal my own insanity - but I've heard other people say similar things about how they feel about this city.

Still and all - MMB probably needs to know that boarding school is quite likely not at all like it is on Zoe 101.

As for the whirlwind - I sympathize with all that energy running at you. I tell people all the time that I was clearly OUT OF MY MIND to have another child at my age. It takes another special kind of energy to deal with toddlers. I am worn out!!

Anonymous said...

lol...no, your not insane...or maybe I'm as insane as you cause you make a lot of sense...I glad that choclahontas is independent but close enough where I can help her...and the toddler thing...the girls were getting on me a few weeks ago to have another baby...first, I don't care bout babydaddy cause I can hold me down, but to run after a toddler? I can do it if it's yours, but to go through pregnancy, breastfeeding, potty training again? HELL NO...

professor said...

that was me responding...don't know why I came up anonymous...guess I'm hiding from myself...

The Bear Maiden said...

lol.

You both make me laugh. Two sides of the Gemini coin, plus a bull for good measure. :)

I had to LOL about whirlwind making the fish tired. That is soooo funny only cuz it's sooooo true. I've never seen a kid with that much energy. My Sun was always calm and methodical and fairly good natured. TinyOne is very good natured but he makes my brain hurt. Spice is pretty saucy, too, lol. I stand firm that they should get together.... OUTSIDE. In a FENCED IN PLAYGROUND. LOL.