Friday, February 27, 2009

the love is over...

...I will say it's me this time...I totally admit that I look down on common folk...I worked really hard to get where I am...I'm working really hard to get to the next level...my goals this year are to pass the LCSW and start my PhD...
I can't be around folk who are satisfied with being where they are...
tonite, in a RARE occurrence, MMB spent the night out...all I wanted to do was go to a nice restaurant, have a drink and relax...I was looking forward to it all day...but NO...this idiot takes me to a ghetto fab chinese/spanish diner...where I was offered a fucking NUTCRACKER...I realized that it's never a good idea to date folk who are below you...it just is not going to work...
yes, I should have be appreciative...it's probably all he can afford...but SHIT...are you fucking serious? yes, I should accept folk for who and what they are...but I always say you can be where I am if you work the way I did...I'm not better, but I bust my ass...
anywho...I've decided that I NEED to be by myself...by the time I get thru the drama of MMB accepting folk, and dealing with that person and all they bring, I just don't have the energy for anything else...
so FUCK IT...I'm going to happily spend the rest of my life by myself...go where I want to, buy what I want to...not have to hear anybody complain or not accept, make comments or anything...

2 comments:

The Bear Maiden said...

I dunno. I think you need to let loose a little. Nutcrackers are good. And at least you had somebody offer to buy you one. And at least somebody try to do something nice. It's not what the gift was, it was that the gift was offered.

I'm just sayin'....

professor said...

you are so right...we talked...he was quick to apologize, and I had to back down and apologize to him for acting the way I did...he did pay...he tried his best to do something for me...it definitely a "man spot" and not for nothing poppy will love it...
point well taken...