omg omg...

...life is so full of ups and downs, ins and outs..,
i had two really good conversations with the bear...i love him...and im gonna love him...even if we don't ever have a relationship...he gave me great things...he made me see things about myself...and the time we spent was something ive always wanted and totally enjoyed...i will cherish our time together with no sad, bitter, or angry feelings...it wasn't lust, but true love...i'm so blessed to have had this at least once in my life...
i can't and won't speak for him but i believe that despite what he says there is a twinkle in his heart as well...i just hope fear doesn't hold him back...cause i know i can, and will, give him the pure joy he gives me...but if it's not to be then it's ok...cause the memory will live with me forever...and i'm ok with that...
it's funny, i'm not sad...really...my heart is full of joy and happiness...regardless of what happens...except for the first day i really haven't cried...i just celebrate the time we shared...the pure beauty of it...

love is a funny thing...it can be something that passes in a flash...it can be long lasting...but i feel love is based on trust and friendship...being there...sharing commonalities...the first person you call when____________...you fill in the blank...it's not about sex, or lust, that comes later...but feeling true comfort and peace when you are in the presence of that person...sometimes you feel is for your best friend or your partner...but it's for us to open our heart...once love is established, the passion will follow...

my sister is having one of the worst times in life she's ever had...i feel for her but there is absolutely nothing i can do to help make her situation better...but i know in my heart the creator will come through in the 24th hour...he didn't bring us this far to have us fail or fall...