arrrgh....

i wish folks were like me...when im mad i yell curse...i get it all out so folks can respond...we can figure it out together...but when it's over, it's over...im done...i hate having the same argument over and over again...if we keep talking bout the same shit that means 1. we're not right for each 2.the communication is really not good 3.it's time to move on...
im too old to be trying to change folks mind to see my point...even if i am right...smh...

so im moving on...i like bear but i think he's right...there is no spark...i like him for what i like him for but i need touch and cuddles...shit i've been with guys who are into me and i can tell the difference...it sucks that he didn't give it a chance but hey, the creator sent him into my life i trust that the creator will send in someone just as special if not waaaaay better...the bear was a dress rehearsal for better things to come...

but as he did nothing terrible...well, he showed his natural ass as did i, but in the grand scheme of things it was very mild...i will remain his friend...we all need good friends in this cold ass world...

so that ends that chapter...

next...

a few months ago i turned down a job due to the poor pay...they called me this week to offer me a higher position paying waaaay more money...i actually like the organization but couldn't stomach the pay...so im actually hoping this works out...and im still considering getting a second masters in special education...i know so much about special needs children...

as far as my love life...i have one boyfriend a year...ugh...it takes me months to recover and realize that all men arn't asshole...sigh...but they are...sigh again...anywho...glad that's out of the way...next time i think ima stick to my first mindset which is NO MEN...NO RELATIONSHIPS...i'm really happy when im by myself...no drama, no emotions, no bullshit...

ahhhhhhh...back to peace and doing me...