schools over

my moodmagicbarbie completed her first year of JHS...the teachers were full of shit, and the kids ghetto as hell, but she managed to get through it without fighting (one of her major fears). She was never absent or late the entire school year...ya think they would give her an award right? HELL NO...I don't understand why they don't like her...I'm praying that the school transfer goes through...
She's a good kid, we've been talking and I like that...believe it or not, I HATE to argue.
Choclahontas as been flightly these last few days and I've been caring for tunner who I love...but if I wanted a baby I really could have one...but he's soo sweet...I got mad at MMB and threw down a picture in a plastic frame and broke it...he waited a beat, and started picking up the pieces, handing them to me "huh m'ma"...

So despite jogging almost everyday, and working out at the gym, and eating well I managed to gain twelve pounds in the last month (actually in about three and a half weeks). I went to the doc yesterday and told him to give me blood tests...I took thyroid, hormone, and something else. It's not normal to gain so much weight in such a short amount of time. I once gained twenty pounds in a month and a half.
In my depression for the last three days I had a piece of cake (which I havent eaten in years), and had my tunafish with crackers (which I also havent eaten in years)...why the fuck do I eat well and exercise when it really doesnt make a difference...but I didn't enjoy the cake or crackers, so I guess I will go back to brown rice and fruit...I'm not lookin for a magic pill, but I would LOVE to get out of the one-nineties...
So I will get test results in about a week...I also asked to speak to a nutritionist, between me and bigbear food is really not the issue, and I really don't eat that much and I eat very healthy. No juice, soda, white rice, potatoes, cookies, cake (except for tuesday) no micky d's or any other junk food (once in a while I will have popeyes wings or chicken tenders), dairy products of any kind (including eggs), chips of any kind...the only thing I can think of is that my portions are too large, but I don't eat as much as other folks...
So right now I feel so swollen and bloated, I'm tired and am just depressed...but I will get over it...I guess it could be worse. I will weigh tomorrow and see how much weight I've gained in the last two days.
Well got to go...tunner was calling me from the top of the stairs to come to bed with him (he will only sleep with me) with a trail of tissue behind him (he has to hold tissue in his hand while he sucks his thumb)
good nite