a new day...

...today is a new day...a new year...a new time...
what does it all mean...IDK...

I like the wiseman...he's cool, quiet, not at all like his street persona...but hey, who cares...MMB is still annoyed but the venom is receding..much like the quiet before the tsunami...but hopefully it wont be too bad...maybe she will see that I'm really happy...

he ended up staying over...chocolate was wheezing and I needed to put him to sleep...he was on one side and the wiseman was on the other...such love...my little one said "muma, can I lay boobiepillow?"...anywho, I passed out...MMB had a bad dream and came into my room to see the wiseman...she was angry and rightfully so, but he was on top of the covers fully dressed...I asked him why didn't he wake me so I could lock the door...he said that with the baby wheezing and his mama being known for not answering her phone he was worried that if I had to take the baby to the hospital he wanted to be there to help me...

so last night he stayed over...MMB had a 'tude but it was short lived...I do care what she thinks and feels but on the other hand this is not sexychocolate, idiot or anyone else I've messed with...I can't explain it but to say I feel this one is a keeper...he never has luck with relationships past six months, and for me it's about three...so in august when we've passed all the barriers we will think about marriage...he brought it up...he does not know bout my money, my pay, or anything that would make me say "yeah, it's for the money, or what I have"...but he tells me "where have you been all my life" and tells me I'm his "darling darling baby" (he sings that song to me)...it sounds cliche, but his mannerisms, body language and the look in his eyes are hard to fake...they appear very sincere...and you KNOW I'm looking...HARD...

I feel safe with him with MMB, partly because he's know choclahontas and has never made a move, partly cause he has seven sisters of which he is VERY close to the three from his mother and father, and partly cause all his girlfriends have been older than him...yes, he gave me the history...

so that's all I'm going to say for now...I'm just living one day, one moment at a time...