my life begins at 40

and the first day of the rest of my life was thursday...so this is how I've planned the beginning of the second half of my life...for one I want to get married...but their are a few critera...
I've never been married...and to be honest, I just want a nice symbolic ring that we both wear...I really don't have to marry legally, cause when you marry, you marry his family, debt, and bullshit...don't know if I have the patience for that...
but I want a spouse...it's kinda late to find a "daddy" for my kids, as they are grown...choclahontas won't care, but moodmagicbarbie will shoot her special loving looks his way and show the man her extra charming sweet and loving mood on a regular basis...it will take a strong and patient man to work through that...
I am paranoid about bringing a man into my household, cause if he so much as looks at mine in the wrong way, I will kill him after the girls get through with him...
then the other thing is I'm not moving...I like my house, my life and my neighborhood...you can keep your house, and I will keep mine and we can visit...thus keeping the relationship new and fresh...cause when you get on my nerves your ass will need to go home...
but otherwise all is well...I'm actually easy going and refuse to be stressed or argue...we can agree to disagree and you are free to do you...
but I know I scare folks...the above, I guess, is proof why my ass is single...lol...
again, it will take a strong, self-assured man to be with me...but once he gets through the crazy, he will have the best (or second best next to bearmaiden) woman in the world cause I know how to treat my man like a king...

Hey world...

I'm back...I took a break to finish up the semester...I had to write finals...now I have to grade those bitches and read final papers...ugh...

Tomorrow is the big day...its the first day of the rest of my life...the big 4 0...from here on out its the slippery slope to death...but I love being my new age...when folks ask me how old I am I started saying it proudly...the response is "NO"...and I say hell yeah...
I have a lot to accomplish in this second half of my life...but the most important part is going well, and that's raising my girls...I wouldn't trade them in for anything...I wouldn't change anything about them...and my little pookatoo...oh I love him so...

Moodmagicbarbie had a guitar music hour today...she rocked it...and the bitch doesn't practice (unless paid)...if she did that well with little to no practice, than I can only imagine what she would be like if she practiced...like the violin teacher said "it must be true talent"...
MMB has declared that she is boycotting her junior high school graduation...personally I don't care...we will still have a graduation dinner...choclahontas didn't walk for her high school graduation...I personally hate graduations and the pomp and circumstance...just give me the paper dammit...

I feel bad that we were unable to make a big deal with choclahontas high school graduation and I feel really bad that her 21st bday was bland and dry...I will make up for it with 22...MMB on the other hand hates parties, so throwing a sweet 16, I'm sure, will not be an option...

so much is swirling around...I have a few post outlined...when I get my mind together I will put them out...

well folks, it's a wrap...my head is pounding from taking the little ones to the farm...I've been to that little piece of farm every year since choclahontas was in pre-k...I can't get away from the farm trip...it's a big hit with ALL schools for the littlies...it stinks, it was muddy (smart me wore MMB's rain boots...good move) and crowded...

so I'm going to bed...talk on the weekend...

its been a while,

but I making the push...school ends next week and I'm writing finals...then I gotta grade those suckers along with the papers...looking forward to the the big 4 0 birthday next week...
I'm so excited to turn 40...I always said my life will begin at 40...
there is a lot going on, but I will write that later...

MMB is doing great...choclahontas got rid of the blob for once and for all...YES...and she registered for classes at FIT...I'm tired but happy and my car is running great...I'm not going to get a new one cause this one is fine, clean and paid for...

heres an idea....

...came to me in a dream last nite...I won't give you the details of the dream, but rather the invention...
I was in a con-ed facility where I stumbled on an invention in the testing phase...seems that they were developing a "safe tent"...instead of wearing an oxygen mask in a fire or in the face of chemical weapons, mace etc this devise blew out some kind of air that surrounded folk within an area the size of a tent in a protective bubble...it came in a device that looked like a vacuum, with a large blue tube, that blew out hot air...it was a little hard to breath, but apparently kept you safe...in my dream I turned on the device by accident and didn't realize what it was for until I "stepped" out the bubble...it was like passing through an thin electrical membrane (I knew it was electrical cause it made the hairs on my arm stand up...it didn't hurt, but I knew I was passing through the wall)...woke up before I found out if I could reenter...when inside you couldn't tell the difference, but once outside I could see the protective wall...I thought in my dream how cool is this...sometimes in fire situations the firefighters give up their masks to safe someone risking injury or death, how cool would it be to be able to protect someone in a smoke filled room until the fire was put out...I know the "tent" didn't protect you from fire it only bought you clean air for a certain amount of time...
so my question, is something like this possible? if it was pure oxygen fire would be attracted to the "tent"...also what type of safe chemicals could block out smoke or hazardous chemicals and create a "shield"...and does anyone else dream like this?

we found out the hard way that my babyboo is allergic to milk...he was exclusively breastfed- an accolade to choclahontas, who at her young age, made the decision on her own...we don't drink milk, me being lactose intolerant and no one liking the taste, tho they eat lots of yogurt and cheese and other calcium rich foods so I'm not concerned with calcium deficiencies...but the last two days of school he has milk twice a day...by the end of thursday he was stuffy and by friday he was in the hospital with his asthma...he didn't have to stay thank God, and now he's home resting...

and finally I'm really happy with life...things are really settled for now, and I'm looking forward to paying off my bills in july...I'm debating if I'm going to get the car fixed and keep it, or trade it in for a new one as the warranty runs out on july 3rd...but I'm not stressing it cause God will send me an answer...